Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me

When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move my mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

kymberly
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ngee ann polytechnic
biomedical science, year 2
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gerberas
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-11:32 PM

HELLO! :D


-2:57 PM

okay. :D
i am happy today. very. :D
i know from today onwards, i'm gonna be okay.
nothing's gonna bring me down anymore.
and this time, i'm really serious! i'm leaving everything behind. and i'm gonna burn that bridge to the past. ((:

last night, i slept at like 8 and i woke up at 8 plus today to go to the dentist cos a rubber band in my mouth snapped. lol.
i was reading my book and listening to some really nice music sang by little kids. i loved it. (:
that book is really amazing. WOAH!
this thing that the author wrote in this book really made a big impact to me.
yeah, you think your plans are greater than God's plans for you? think twice. when has God ever disappointed you. He always shocks you when you think that His plans aren't as good as yours right?
yeap. i've been thinking, this is what i really want. these are the best plans for my life.
but nope, these plans aren't the greatest unless they are God's.
so i'm letting go of my plans and i'm sure there are greater ones coming! :D
i've been miserable because maybe it was a lack of trust or maybe i just couldn't let go of what i thought was "best" for me.
i've been too stubborn.

but hey, i'm gonna be better than fine now. cos i know no matter what happens, God's greater plans will bring me more joy than anything in the end. (:
i find myself smiling more often now when i think of the future and i know there has been a change inside somehow.
i'm really amazed by God's power. (:

so all those who are worried about me, don't okay?
cos there's nothing to worry about anymore.
cos i'm in safe and good hands. (:

okay, i've gotta go pack my stuff now. cos my house's renovations are starting soon and i've gotta pack!
mom's screaming at me already. LOL.
so until the next time, goodbye everyone!

believe that prayer changes things, and don't give up, no matter how bad your situation is. (: God knows, and He will change things. smile! :D

i love You so much.


-10:32 AM




-11:26 PM

i can't believe i broke down 2 times today.
i'm sorry to the 2 people, but thank you as well.

i met brudder today,
i'm sorry that i kept quiet almost throughout the whole journey,
and i'm sorry that we didn't go and eat in the end.
we were supposed to go have dinner, but i wasn't in the mood.
in the end we landed up at my house's void deck, walking in the mild rain,
walking on and on to the bubble tea store.
in the end, we walked back and sat down to talk.

i'm sorry for not being able to get out of this mess.
i find it really hard, really really hard.

but, talking to brudder really helps.
talking about memories that you can't forget,
talking about things you regret,
talking about things you feel the most sad about.
talking about things that you really feel deep inside that other people would despise.
i know i'm silly, but i've been thinking, if my purpose in life is to go through torture and pain, then it'll be better if i'm gone right? wouldn't everything be better then?
i've been thinking about this for so long, but i choose to keep quiet. i know not everyone would understand.
but now, talking about it to you who understands only makes it all better.
i know i shouldn't think that way, i know i'll be stronger. i know i'll stand up somehow.
and i know my purpose isn't that. it's just a big lie.

it really makes me feel so much better.
the silly things you say that make me laugh seem to be uncountable you know.
lol. (:
though brudder, i thought you'd be bored, but in the midst of everything, you make me feel really lucky and blessed.
it's really nice to have someone to listen and to know what to say and to comfort.
thank you, really. <3333

it's really scary, cos 2 people said the same thing to me.
["always learn to let go as u learn how to take up"
its always hard to let go, but if u dun let go of this barrier, God's blessings cannot come through to you.]
thank you pris, and ann. (:

as how i've taken this up, i know i will learn to let go.
i guess i've been blinded by too many things.
i've been too tired, been too depressed.
everytime i feel as if i'm strong, the next moment i crumble.
but i know i will let go of all this sooner or later. just give me some time.
i've been blocking out God's blessings, cos i choose to be blind, to hide myself.
i've been too silly.
i've been a fool in love, a fool who loves someone who no longer loves me, someone who isn't willing to fight for me, who regrets, but doesn't want to turn back.
i always thought "maybe i'm not worth it."
yeap. maybe i am, but even if i'm not worth it to one person, i'll still be "worth it" to other people right? (:

i thank God that i have friends like you that have opened my eyes, not to see my situations, but to see the way i've been acting in response to my situations.
it's been a big burden i've been carrying all this time.
too many memories, heartache, tears, thoughts, lies.
but i'm laying it down at the feet of Jesus now.
yes ann, i'm gonna say "i surrender all, Jesus."
cos now i'm way to tired.
i don't know when all this is going to end, but just like He told me,
"just be strong. a little while more, a little while more.
though sometimes i feel i can't be strong anymore, i'll still pick myself up and continue to walk till the day when i can stop walking. i'll be strong, and gain strength from God.
no matter how things go, it's okay now.
i don't wanna think about these things, but instead now, it's time to nurse my heart.
it feels as if it's been trampled over and over again.
but i won't let it be now.
(:

i'm gonna be stronger and be more optimistic from now on.
and, i'd appreciate it if you guys wouldn't talk about him to me from now on, unless of course i talk to you about it. lol
it'll be a great help to me.
and after all the time has passed, then when i can talk about it and say that "it's my past" and "it no longer matters to me now" and "it doesn't affect me", then we'll talk about it. (:
now, just help me okay? (:

don't worry, i'm gonna be fine. just give me a little time.
:D

thank you ann, thank you brudder, thank you qing, thank you pris, for not only stepping in during this period of time, but also knowing how to get me through this difficult period of time.
i love all of you very much. (:

goodnight everyone,
i'm gonna sleep now.
I AM GOONG CRAZY. lol. i love that show! :p



God, please let this end soon, and help me stand strong, it's been very very hard Lord. please let this end soon. Amen.


-10:56 PM

i was so silly today.
i shared my problems to qing, of how thoughts have been filling my mind.
of how much i miss you, of how much i wished that only both of us existed and at least, we could be together. and of so many "what ifs".
how much it pains me.
"no matter how much we quarreled, i still knew that i wouldn't be able to do without him. but in the end, i still had to do without him."

i used to wish that you could have left me for another reason.
okay, maybe not for another girl, but for some other reason.
at least it would kill my feelings.
the truth is, after so long, i still love you. i still love you, so so much.
and i hate the memories that come back to me everytime.
i find myself tearing when i think about those really nice times, but at the same time, i hold on so dearly to them cos that's the only thing i have left of you.
and i may never have these same memories ever again.
i always promise myself to never cry again, but i always do. i always do.
i wish i could control it. but i miss you so much. i miss the times when i could look at you when you were sleeping, or can play silly things with you, i miss having simple dinners with you, i miss having bubble tea and heh mee with you, i just miss you. your small eyed smile, your smile that makes me forget so much worries.
i dream of you now and then, and when i wake up, i hate myself for dreaming of you, cos i know you're never coming back.

but today, one tight slap came to me, waking me up to reality.
yeah, i don't love you now, i love the you in the past.
i miss that person. and now, i'll just take it as he died, and he's never coming back. cos you say you've changed.
why are you so silly? how could a person just stop loving you just because she says that she wants to?
feelings aren't easy to forget although i wish they were easy to.
i've been strong all this time, i say i won't cry, but i'll watch you cry. but in the quiet, i'll still end up crying.
i won't leave your side, and i want to be there for you till the end of time.
that's what i'd always think. i want to be strong for you, and i still want to love you.
but i woke up today, i've been holding on to something that has already left my side.
that no longer loves me the way he did.
i've been giving you so much, silently. i make the first move in talking to you even if your nick is "no mood" or some really depressing thing.
you know, even before i type something, i get scared. cos i know i may get hurt again.
but i pluck up my courage. i just want to see you smile, make you happy.
and you know, that day when i fell, i'd think, if i could just hear your voice, i don't mind falling a few more times. lol.

i always say "the most impt thing is that you're happy." but even as i say that, i can feel so much pain inside.
as much as i want to see you happy, i sometimes wish that i was the one who was always making you happy.

i don't say things, it doesn't mean i don't feel them.
all this time when i've been trying my best, all you do is return with really cold replies.
i guess, i've been so dumb all this time.
i can't believe how badly i'm tearing while i'm typing all these out.

it's okay, i've woken up today. i guess i should really let go.
whatever i wish for, is now impossible.
what's in the past, will be left in the past.
and what's in the future, i only look forward to the time when i'll meet someone new, someone who can make me smile, make me happy, make me feel that bliss i felt in the past when i was with you.
all i know is that someone, can no longer be you.

i guess i've been suffering quietly alone. you're the one who meant so much to me. more than anyone ever has.
but from today, it is goodbye without turning back.
i've killed all hopes for anything now.
and for the last time, i'm gonna say this,
i love you, enming. even from the start till today, i still love you like before. and nothing has changed since then.
but i won't say this anymore because i'm moving on cos i know you can no longer be mine and i can no longer be yours.
i just hope i can see you smile more often now, and lead a happy life.
and i promise i will, so you won't have to worry about me anymore. (:

and i promise, no matter how hard it is to walk away from you, i will still do it.
i'll force myself to.
it was love that brought us together, and now, love is also the one that's pulling us apart.

study hard, make your parents proud.
i know you always get worried when exams are around the corner, don't call yourself stupid. cos you're not. i think you're amazing.
really. (:
i pray that you'll never forget how good God has been to you.
i hope that you'll be a happy little boy from today onwards.

goodbye, enming. from now till a long long time, goodbye.
take care baby.
i pray i'll not miss you anymore.

goodbye, and for the last-est time, i love you baby, i love you.

goodbye.

God, please help me to be strong through the times that i think i can't. thank You.


-10:14 PM


:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

hello there, i'm here to blog again.
i've finished my assignments (YAY!) and i met dwightie today. (DOUBLE YAY!).
i met dwightie for lunch and omgoodness, i just found out that dwightie's younger brother is exactly the same age as me. that means he was born on the 11/11/1989 as well.
:D
LOL. (:

we went to eat mad jack's again. i've eaten that 3 times in this month already but oh well. it's still nice to me. heh.
and then we headed off to island creamery for MUDPIEEEEEEEE! :D
hehehehehehe.
he was telling me about how camp's like and stuff.
some stuff really made me laugh like crazy! hhaha. (:
i see dwightie turning into a real man now you know. :)
hehh. okay, i'm just kidding. (:
he's already a man, a good man.
i had to leave early because i had to rush assignments. (i'm sorry dwightie.)
i had a good time listening to his stories, and everything.
i don't know, but after i met dwight, i felt so good. for some reason. (:
OH YES, dwightie's the only sweetheart that didn't laugh at my fall. ((((:


and i miss him already. sigh. :(
i pretty much hate it when he's back in camp but oh well.
i'm gonna see him next wk again, and i just hope this week will be good for him.

take care dwightie, i know you're in camp already and won't be able to read this, but when you do, and when you come out, i just want you to know, this life would be harder to get through without you around. you've opened my eyes to countless things. and i'm waiting for you to play the guitar for me soon. (: take care dwightie. big big big huggs for youuuu! blearlgahaksj! :p

goodnight everyone, it's been a good but tiring day.
so i'm gonna slp now, tmr's gonna be a long day.
so goodnight everyone.
have a great week ahead! :DDDD



God, i love You, and there's nothing that's gonna bring me down now. i wouldn't exchange anything for this now. thank You. (:


-11:44 AM

arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesterday's "SO YOU THINK YOU CAN SCREAM" event was WOAH!
our once in awhile worship experience in IGNYTE has finally come again.
it was super good i tell you. :DD
i learnt so many things, heard so many things, felt so many things, the feeling's just indescribable.
it's really a pity that i can't go for IGNYTE camp this year, due to term tests and stuff. i think all the poly people can't, so if i'm not wrong, Pastor Gary's making a poly retreat for us after our term tests. :D YAY. haha

and and and i'm super super super happy to see _______ there. :D
i think the moment i walked into the chapel and saw ______, i practically melted. :D
hehhh. gosh, it feels SOOOOOOOO good to see you back, it's been such a long time, and i've missed you. :)

haha, ling, pingg and i went for FUEL yesterday, like after so long. :x
lol. TRINITY @ Paya Lebar would be ready by next year January,
and yes, TRINITY would be split into 2, where half would go to Adam, and the other half would go to PL.
my family and i have been assigned to PL, and pingg, lizz, ling would be going to PL as well. (:
there's gonna be 2 IGNYTES, all x2.
it's gonna be a new start for the church again.
and i can't imagine the great things that are gonna happen. (:
though we'll have to split up, i believe that there are reasons and we just have to trust where GOD is leading us.
i can't wait! :D

then after fuel, we went to eat heh mee. :D
hhehehe.
very very very nice! :D
we went home happily and really tired. haha.
but i really enjoyed yesterday. it was really really good. (:

ohkay, now i've gotta go do my assignments. :(((
i've got to complete them or else i won't have time cos i'm meeting dwightie! :D
yay!
bye! have a nice day you all. and i'll blog about my birthday real soon(sorry!). (:

"how great is our God!"



it really feels so good to see you back. it's been such a long time. (:


-11:10 AM

LOL, i just woke up and i just wanna blog.
i had 2 dreams last night. scary ones. one was really bloody. the other was very scary, but i had a boy in my dream, being with me, keeping me safe. and i know who that boy was.

before i slept last night, i was talking to my mom. telling her about the past few days.
i said that i feel that in the future "......".
and i said that i'm really silly right?

mom said that i wasn't. she said that it's alright to build your dreams with someone you love.
sometimes i wish i couldn't.
i wish i could build some other dreams somewhere else with someone else.

i really wish i could migrate or something. yeah. call it running away or what.
at least running away can help me take some rest and get away from all these things that i don't wanna go through.
it's like constant torment. i guess i have myself to blame.

cos even after so long, i still love you.
sometimes i wish i could say that out. but now i know i no longer can.
i can no longer say i'm sad in front of you, cos you always say that you don't want me to be hurt because of you.
so at all times, i must seem strong.
i must laugh, i must be happy, i can't cry, i can't feel agony.
and this is torturing me.
mom said, "you can be strong, but somedays, you'll just crumble. but at the end of the day you have to get up and say "i can do it."."
yeah mom, i know. (:

i hate myself for missing you, really.
i wish that i've gotten selective amnesia.
i choose to remember the happy things and forget all those bad ones.
i choose to remember what my life was before you, and forget the one after you came and gone.
i wish that every place i go, i can take a duster or something and clear away all the memories like a whiteboard and leave nothing behind.

i question myself why was it so easy to forget everything behind him and me?
but now you and me, why is it so difficult for me?

anyway, all in all, if all i've done, can let you live a good and happy life without any troubles,
then it's worth it.
even if i've got to go through all torment, and cry for you sometimes, it's alright.
at least in my heart, i know you're safe and sound.
even if i've got to force myself to walk away from you just to make things better, i would.
all in all, i just want you to be happy, be alright.
as much as i wish that i could still call you mine, still have you to hold and lean on when i need to,
i know i no longer can, and i have to move on.
i know that i still hold dreams in my heart that i won't let go.
but all these dreams have to be put on a hold and in the meanwhile, i'll just have to move on.
move on and move on.

i realised last night, that my ultimate wish is to see you happy.
i realised that even if i feel lousy about everything, just the thought of you being alright, safe and sound, brings me the peace.

so please, be happy. (:
don't let this blog post affect you alright?
feelings for you, funny how it is, just cannot be forgotten in such a short matter of time.
maybe even after long, i wouldn't be able to.
i don't know.
i'll keep my promise, and i hope you'll keep yours too.
our promise does not have to be said, we both know it.
and maybe someday, things will be back right where it's supposed to be. (:



still, nobody can take the place of my number one boy.


-12:10 AM

Avalon - New Day. ((:

"It's a new day, oh it's a new time.
and there's a new way i'm gonna live my life.
all the old has passed away and the new has come.
thank God, it's a brand new day.

Looking back on yesterday there are things that i regret,
but i put the past behind me and i never will forget,
You have covered my mistakes and my broken dreams.
now over the horizon i see the dawn is drawing near,
and i realised the sun did rise, tomorrow's finally here.

It's a new day, oh it's a new time.
and there's a new way i'm gonna live my life.
all the old has passed away and the new has come.
thank God, it's a brand new day.

Now, when i wake up thinkin',
'bout the things i've done before,
memories i could not escape,
well they can't haunt me anymore.
now i can hold my head up high,
cos i am not the same.
You've changed my whole perspective,
now with new eyes i see,
i've become a new creation,
cos of what You've done for me.

cos of what You've done for me,
i am not ashamed.
THIS HEART OF MINE IS FINALLY FREE,
I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME." :D





hello everyoneeeeeeeeee. :D


i'm here to blog again.
firstly, i wanna say, i was really tired ytd. and i fell asleep on the bus after a long time.
the last time i fell asleep was uhhhhh, never mind.
haha.

i had such a hard time waking up ytd morning. my whole body was aching and i was like stoning on the bed for 5mins before i really got up. lol.
we went for maths lecture in the morning for 2 hours and then we headed off to kap's macs. (:
hehhhh. we finally could have our long sought after macs breakfast. yumyumm! :D

bran didn't come yesteryday. sigh. :(
i really hope he's alright. brandon, we're all worried about you, y'know. please be okay. :(
however, my 3 girls and i had loads of funnnn. (:


after that, we went into the "video ezy" beside macs after that to take a look at some dvds. (:
ann rented one for her and putri sayangg to go back to school to watch since ann was going to wait for her bf and sayangg had still quite a lot of time before meeting her friend.
we urm, did not go back for our 1 hour chem lecture. :x
anyway, we don't think it's of any use cos we don't really listen. lol. so yeap.
qing and i then left. she was going home and i was going to meet my mom at her workplace.



so yes, as i was saying, i fell aslp in the bus since i was so tired,
and i lost my earpiece for my phone! RAH! :(
oh well, never mind. i hope i can get a new one soon. hehhh.


not only did i lose my earpiece, i overshot the bus stop that i was supposed to alight at, since yes, i was zZzzzzzzzzzzzz. :x hahaha oh well, never mind la, cos i still reached mom's office. (:
hehehe.

we went to eat sakae sushi and thinking about it, i realised i ate sakae sushi exactly 1 week ago with Ren Ko. ((((((((((((((: heh.


so we ate and everything then mom bought me this ice cream from this shop called "uzumaki" if i'm not wrong. they have like green tea ice cream.
it's $4! i didn't want it at first cos of it's price and urm, really small portion.
but mom still bought it cos she loves me and wanted me to let me try it out. (:
i love my mom! :D
then i went home.



actually i wanted to go to Ren's house ytd but he's working till pretty late and i've got a lot of assignments to complete. so, i don't really feel like going. maybe the weekends or something. :D
alright, now time for some pictures :



-11:48 PM

hello there, (:
i'm sorry that i haven't been blogging lately. i've been caught up in school work and stuff.
i celebrated my 17th birthday on the 11th of this month and i know i haven't blogged and uploaded pictures and stuff.
but i promise i'll do all that after i get all the pictures.
but i can just say 3 words to describe it all. "BESTEST BIRTHDAY EVER." :D
heh. thank you to all who made it so memorable. i love all of you so much! (:

this week has been alright. i just feel really tired, and weak these past few days.
haha. but i'm still happy.
i got to see brudder on monday night. we went out to have dinner and sorta celebrate my birthday since he couldn't come on saturday. (:
oh well, we went to have long john's since i haven't eaten that in a long time.
brudder makes me laugh like shit you know.
and things that usually i won't find funny, i'll still find funny when he says it.
he always makes my day. :D
the world seems to disappear when he's around. my worries seem to fade. and all i can hear is laughter. ((:
it's really amazing. have i mentioned how much i love my brudder? (:
thank you brudder, for the CD. i lovee it! :D
heh.

you know, i think, life has never been this good. really.
it's like, i don't know. i'm just having a lot of fun.
although i do worry, i do have my downs, but they're always replaced with ups that people around me give. and they're always replaced by hopes, dreams, and love too.
i've been thinking alot of what i want to do in the future. i can't wait for poly to end, and then maybe go overseas to study U. (:
i can never thank the people around me enough. they're constantly there, willing to hear me complain, scold people, see me get angry, get upset and everything. i feel like crying sometimes, thinking of how blessed i am.
even when things seem as if they put me at the losing end, i feel like i'm a winner, and definitely not a loser.
whatever it is, i know that all things will turn out well. (:
as much as i'm waiting for my love to come back to me, i'm willing to give it up at any time that requires me to do so.
as long as we're all happy. nothing else matters to me.
as long as i know my future is set, and would turn out well, i don't have anything to worry about, do i? :D

to putri sayangg, ann, and qing.
thank you for all that you've given me. i really don't know what i would have done without you guys.
the crazy things we do like running along alleys of practical rooms and laughing like "siao char bors" and going to the library to eat instant noodles and drink bubble tea and just talking a lot.
it's made me gain so much, more than you guys could imagine. (:
i love you all, and i know my life would never be the same without you all to make my day shine so brightly everyday. (:

every phase in life, teaches us something. though i didn't see it then, when all that was within my sight were tears, i see it now. i know i've learnt so much. and i've benefitted a lot from this. i see the reasons why this had to happen. i see why this specific time, why this situation. i know now. i may not have ALL the answers, but i've gotten a glimpse of the bigger picture and that's enough for me to push on and hold on. i guess when vision and foresight is limited, we suffer the most, cos we only see the tunnel we're in and how dark it is, but we do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. in the future, there will be many more tears i'll have to shed for sure, there will be many times where i'll have to push myself to move on when difficult situations come along, but hey. i know now that i'm stronger than before. (: and with each situation i have to go through, i'll become stronger and every tear i cry, would be worth it at the end of the day. (: i won't give up, i won't. and i don't want people out there to as well. for every thing you go through, there's a bigger reason that we wouldn't be able to perceive. but we would. you'll see it at the end of the day. i have faith, and hope. in my GOD whom i know holds my future in His hands. and i know, as long as i have Him around, i will be way better than just okay. (:

in due time, i know like before, i'll have someone i can really rely on again. but before that, i want to be independent so that that person can rely on me as well. (: hehh.

alright, kym is going to bed now. (:
so before she goes, she just wants to say:

"learning to cope with loss, or even, getting over your loss, is not a sign of your scarce love for the other party. but it is a sign of sacrificial and abundant love, so much that it is enough to let you let that person go and be happy. even if you're no longer in his/her life." :D

alright, goodnight world. :D

please keep mickey till forever. ((:


-8:20 PM


(:

ahh, it's so nice to be home finally.
before i start doing my "famous mathematicians" assignment(which i really think does not help me with maths), i just wanted to blog. (:
i was supposed to meet pastor Gary today but we didn't meet in the end cos he's not feeling well so we postponed it to next wk. take care pastor Gary.

i am pretty silly today.
hehh. even on my bus rides to and from school, i thought about a lot.
through every relationship we go through, we come to realise what things we really like in your partner and what you don't like. then when picking the next partner, we're more aware of what we want and which points are really important to you. no, i'm not talking about wanting someone really close to perfect and where standards are sky high.
cos no one's perfect. you set your standards just right. enough to make you really happy and satisfied about it.

i have come to my conclusion after much thought and after some experience, of what a man must have before coming into my life.

here:
1) definitely must be a man after God's heart.
2) LOVE ME A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT and of course accept my shortcomings.
3) has understanding parents who can accept me and love me and a good family is good too. (:
4) knows how to set priorities right, and make time for me when i need him.
5) be there for me, support me, encourage me.
6) play a musical instrument? preferably the piano, guitar or drums and a plus would be if he could sing really well too. hehh.
7) be more positive than negative. i don't want a gloomy boy by my side all the time y'know. (:
8) must have LOTS OF patience and tolerance for kymberly can be a big idiot sometimes.
9) be a good listener and a good talker too.
10) have good personal hygiene, know how to groom, dress and carry himself well. (:
11) play a certain sport.
12) know how to take care of his own health and his well being. if he don't even know how to take care of himself, how to take care of me?
13) be a homely person. i like people who can just bum around the whole day with me instead of going out.
14) someone who is soft and strong hearted, compassionate, but still knows how to stand up for himself and me. (:
15) someone who can cook, instant noodles not counted okay. :p other simple stuff can. heh. :D
16) don't smoke, cos this is not taking care of his own health plus i cannot tahan smoke smell and i've got asthmatic history and don't drink, cos i just don't like it.
17) be sweet! :D
18) know how to pamper me and know the right ways to make me happy and make the effort to find out those ways. (:
19) get along well with my friends.
20) LOVE ME LOTS LOTS AND LOTS. okay, wait, i said that already. but aiya, nvm la.

yeahhh, these are the main ones la. if i go on, it'll be as long as toilet paper. (:
lol, i rmb mom telling me this, if you pray every night and ask God to send a man who has all that qualities you want, somehow or another, he'll come along.
no joke okay, i've had friends who've found partners who really match whatever they've written down years ago. it's like a perfect fit.
(:

these are my thoughts for today, and maybe girls out there would want to try setting your standards and find the right guy for yourself some day. (:
and some, please don't say, "eh, i got so much criteria, what if i can't find that person?"
i assure you, you will. (:
then you'll know he's god-sent.
hehehehe.

alright, i've gotta go do my silly assignment now,
please take care everyone! bye! :DDDD

"the end of something is the beginning of something new."


-6:32 PM

hello there! :)
welcome to my new blog, please relink me okay?

after blogging at my other blog for almost 2 years, i'm moving here.
there was where i had many happy and many many sad memories,
here is where i'm gonna build new and happy memories.
but i still love that blog and as much as i'm keeping it aside now, they are now my box of memories and i can gain strength from there next time. (:

this is where i start my new life, a new time.
i met brandon on the way to school today, not brandon from my class but brandon from church and school.
we were talking, about how times have changed.
about how we're growing up so quickly now, about how we people in church aren't that close anymore like before in secondary school, how people have been so busy with their own stuff, own poly, own jc.
like, i haven't been seeing dinesh in church recently, and i miss talks with that boy.
i miss all the times we used to have.
but like brandon said, we're all moving on constantly, but in our hearts, we still rmb each other.
yeap, we're all growing up brandon.
we've come so far.
we change for the better, conquer new things. God is shaping us.

though the talk was only for the bus journey, it made me feel as if many things talked to me.
as if there was something stirring in my heart.
we're all growing up, pain is a part of the growing up process isn't it? ((:
i just know now i feel happy, and somehow something inside has changed.
many dreams that were lost, somehow have resurfaced.
i realise that actually, i want to chase these dreams the best i can.
things i held close to my heart once, then gone, are now coming back to me.

there's studies, where i want to study medicine, but at the rate i'm going, i don't think i can unless now i work harder. i want to pursue this really badly.
then there's spiritual stuff, where i hold some things really close to my heart.
there's my passion for music, where it used to burn so strongly, but now it seems like the fire has doused off.

i'm gonna pursue things that were once really close to my heart, cos i realised how much they matter to me than many other things.

then there's settling down.
which girl doesn't want to settle down huh? tell me. lol.
yeap, that's one of my dreams too,
but not now, not at the moment, until i find the right person. (:
i'm sure i will, along the road.
then i'll settle down, have a family together under one roof. (:

i asked ann and qing today,
if you meet someone 5 years older than you and you guys start dating, then when you finish your diploma where you've dated for 3 years and you're around 20, he proposes, then how?
LOL. our answers were all almost the same "GET MARRIED LOH, if he's willing to take care of me for the rest of his life, then get married." lol.

we all want to settle down, and that time will come when we all will.

for me, now, i know what's important for me, and for the person i love.
if we all love, it shouldn't be selfish love. because selfish love, isn't love at all.
cos if you love that person, you wouldn't want to impose demands that would hurt the other party right? :)
i have learnt much, and yes, if it's meant to be, my love will come back to me.

i told putri sayangg ytd, i miss him a lot.
yeah, i miss him, but now, i'm getting used to it. (:
i've learnt to finally let go of everything.
looking at things from a brighter perspective makes me feel a whole lot better now.
we're all still young, there's no forever yet, till later.
and i'm growing up, i'm still growing up, to be a woman that i was intended by God to be.
though challenges are many, and sometimes good times seem few, but i know that someday i will still be that strong woman i was made to be. (:
it's all in the learning process.

and i hope enming will grow up to be the man he was intended to be and not let disappointing things bring him down. i know he'll be stronger and turn out to be that good man that God also intended him to be.

like gold has to go through the fire to be purified,
like water has to go through complicated processes to be clean and better,
like rice has to be in a pressure rice cooker to be cooked,
like pebbles have to be under harsh running water to be made smooth,
we humans have to go through trials to turn out as pure as gold, to be stronger and more polished like a little pebble.
things never come easy in life, and we never can escape trials. but we gain strength everytime we get through each one. (:
love is the same.

and now, i've decided to move on, to create a new life and pursue my once lost but now found dreams. (:

i hope everyone can be happy too.

and here's a little video from the "The Lion King 2" about how the male lion in the video is scar's(a bad leader from the bad land) son, who turned out good but is still other his family's expectations to bring Simba(the good lion leader from the good land) down. to overtake that kingdom. but Simba's daughter and Scar's son met somehow and fell in love. obviously both families didn't allow it since it could harm each family's expectations and harm the family. thus both had to go through many rough times, rejection, hurts, pains, tears. this video shows these 2 lions and listen to the lyrics of the song "Love Will Find A Way". it's a really nice show, i love it. cos in the end, the 2 sides "made up" and came together cos Simba's daughter and Scar's son brought the 2 sides together. and in the end they lived happily in love ever after. i really loved and still love this movie for some reason. lol. (:



may this bring you all much hope that nothing is impossible and hard times will pass. (:
be happy!
goodbye! :D

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