Saturday, December 02, 2006
-2:39 AM
hello there! :)
i'm here to blog after hmmm, some time?
i've been busy with a lot and as some of you know, TERM TESTS are coming! :(
and i'm gonna be planning the games for poly outing day with marcus and jia hao.
busy busy busy!
oh well, i'll just take it as it comes. (:
overall, through all the stress and tiredness,
i am a really happy girl and lately, on most nights i sleep with a smile on my face. (:
let's see, on wednesday, i went to find mom after school. (:
lol, i went to make my new specs(YAY!). i haven't changed my specs since sec 1. heh
and i really like my new one. (:
mom bought subway for me to eat. and i went to her office to eat.
heh. then now it's like they're planning for some events and this guy from her office was super funny. i kept laughing when he talked luh. he didn't talk like an adult. he felt more like a friend.
i laughed like crazy and mom did too.
i love being with mom. (:
i waited for mom to finish work and then dad came to pick us up. then we went home together. :D
wednesday was a good day. (:
then thursday, we wenttt......................
ICE SKATING! :D
lol, it was FUN with my girls, huan qing, ann and putri sayangg.
though many times i almost fell and some of us fell,
we had fun learning, screaming and laughing. lol.
it was really memorable.
:D
it was really cold there, and i kept sneezing.
huan qing is really a good teacher! lol.
she patiently taught us. ((:
we skated for 5 hours and then went home for dinner.
we skated till our feet were numb and painful. aiya, but who cares la. hehehe.
we had dragon beard candy before going home. it was my first time eating it and it was really nice! i REALLLLLLLLY like it! lol. (:
i went home and i slept super early since i was tired and already not feeling very well.
anyway, it was a really good time i had with them.
and i just wanna sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
you girls really make me very happy. through the downs and then the ups, you've been there with me and for me.
i thank God for placing all of you in my life. the times when i've broken down and cried in the past, though now it seems like it's long gone,
i remember them so clearly, how you guys were there for me.
you guys are really a great blessing from God to me. (:
i love you all so so much and whatever we've gone through together, i believe, has made us much stronger than the past. (:
thank you girls. (:
let's go ice skating again soon okay! :D
heh, these memories i'll always keep. big hugs to the 3 of you! :D
and today,
had school, some upsetting thing happened, but everything's alright now. ((:
then went to church for combined L cell with Pastor Gary.
this would be our "last" combined L cell cos some of would be moving to Paya Lebar soon.
it was a good time of listening and learning stuff.
then our cell went to eat at adam hawker.
it was sister cheryl's treat today. :)
thank you Sister Cheryl! :D
i was just talking to felix on our walk back to the bus stop about how fast time has passed.
it was like just yesterday when we got to know each other back in pri 2 or 3.
lol, it's been a long time, felix. (:
and we're finally all grown up now but still friends like before and fellow leaders. (:
it's been a looooooong time and i'm glad i have an old friend in church who until now is still serving and have not fallen away from God. (:
you see, like the yesterday was today, the present soon will also become the past.
your hurts, will become part of your past as well.
i remember always telling God during that period of time, i don't think i can make it through. it seems so difficult.
but now, looking at it, it seems so far away. and i have made it through, and i'm stronger than before.
and all of that now is in my past, and i'm only looking toward my future and i know it's brighter than before.
i remember God telling me to leave the past behind when i stubbornly couldn't. when i wanted to hold on to what i thought was best for me.
but hey, God knows the best for me isn't it? lol.
i remember saying that it was so tough, and a great torture.
but finally, i let go of everything, cos yeap, i trust myself, but i trust my God much much more.
i trust that the plans that He has are better than the plans i have for my life.
they say love is blind,
but i think i'd agree more if the person said faith is like being blind, not knowing where to go, stuck in a dark and cold place and just feeling lost.
but when you hear a voice and recognise that that's the person you know you can trust and love, you don't worry, you're not afraid, and you have faith.
and you leave everything behind when He says you should.
and you hold on to His hand so tightly even though you're blind.
and finally, He leads you out of everything. He gives you joy that the world can't give, love that doesn't lead to regrets, greater love than anything on this earth.
that's how it feels to me, having faith in God.
i don't look in anticipation of how the past will come back to life in the present,
cos nope, i've already left all of it behind. all sadness, all worries, all in the past.
i look in anticipation of the new things that are about to happen and blow me away.
i knw i won't regret this for sure. (:
in everything, all trials, all hardships,
all hurt me, all made me feel so broken, but i know that God had a purpose.
i may have been broken, i may have felt tired, but i'm not anymore.
i'm strong now, and whole again, moving on in the direction where God is pointing me to.
but i'm really thankful that through all those trials, He was with me and was faithful.
He placed so many amazing people in my life to encourage me and comfort me.
this is His great love for me.
i know now, that whatever happens in this life, i'm gonna be stronger and stronger.
and happier and happier. (:
i pray for all those who are going through a hard time now,
that you will reach beyond your pain and see the positive side of things.
i pray that a comfort and peace will come to you like it came to me.
be happy. :D
alright,
i'm tired now, it's been a long day and night and it's gonna be a longer weekend with all the packing and stuff, lol,
so goodnight world!
all have a good weekend ahead okay! (:
bye!
whatever would i have done without You? what a joy you've given me. (:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
