lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move my mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Saturday, January 06, 2007
-1:43 AM
hello there, i am not feeling very good today.
i met up with jeanette, daryl and yuen ting at 10 in sch today, for CATS project.
my head felt like bursting. i slept with a headache and i woke up with one too.
and i think it's because of my flu and fever.
in fact, even after taking a looong nap after i came back from sch at 4, i'm still having a headache. :(
i didn't go for S&W as my headache was beyond my control.
ann didn't come to school at all today. her grandma passed away. :'(
i'm sorry dearie, i hope you're doing fine. i pray that God will help you and your family get thru this hard time. we're all here for you. (: love you ann.
and marcus ling is freaky. he knew that i didn't go for S&W today and that i took a nap. i asked him how does he knw and his replies are making me quite fed up. lol. stupid pasta head.
now, i'll start here.
do i still love him?
haha, actually, i don't find a need to give you, "anoymous", an answer.
i think, it wouldn't make any difference.
things that i hold close to my heart, will be kept in my heart and only revealed to people that care to know my heart.
you may be an outsider who's looking at things from your point of view, but my close ones know the things going on on the inside.
they know the things i've gone through.
whether or not i love him, or whether or not i'm waiting for him, these are things that only I NEED TO KNOW.
like you said, that's of course if he feels the same.
so, what if he doesn't feel the same?
then do you know, the pain of waiting?
or do you then know the scars that pains have left behind?
do you know how it feels like?
do you know, how it feels like to wait and then realise that the person no longer feels the same or the person's changed?
if you could guarantee that the person will remain the same or will become better instead of worse, then it'll be a different story.
i'd rather hide my heart from the outside world, cos i know what's best for me.
for me, i find it unnecessary now to say "i love you/i don't love you" or "i'm waiting for you/i'm not waiting for you", cos these are personal decisions that only i myself need to know.
i've learnt this from everything that has happened:
even if you think that things are in control, they can suddenly spin out of control,
and even if you made plans yourself, your plans may not be the one that will be carried out.
you may have plans, but there may be greater plans for you that you do not know.
you can say now that i'm leaving the planning and my heart into greater hands.
(:
i know perhaps you're concerned, and thank you for caring. but these things are between him and i.
and i do not want to be reminded of this anymore okay? thanks. :)
in summary, whether or not i love him still or am waiting for him or not, are for me to know only.
things that are meant to be, they always will be.
okay, that's all i want to say.
goodnight, my head's bursting already.
OH YES, GO WATCH NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM. that show's hilarious! :p right ping dear? :)
please read in between the lines.
